I found it quite difficult to come up with resolutions or goals for the year. Mostly because I’ve been swept away by another wave of depression and all I want to do is not exist. But in the rare moments of clarity, I mustered a few things that I’d like to do or accomplish in the new year.
They are as follows:
- Be more emotionally independent
- Go hiking once a month
- Travel to New Zealand
- Write a book
- Get back into making YouTube videos on the regular
Each goal has their own challenges (mostly to do with a lack of motivation and also overbearing self-doubt), but I believe they’re achievable.
I guess the most important goal I’ve listed is to be emotionally independent. For a long time, I’ve been placing my happiness in other people’s hands in the hopes that they can fill up that weird empty feeling inside me. So perhaps it’s time to take full responsibility in finding my own happiness. Maybe happiness isn’t even what I’m looking for – maybe it’s something more like contentment? Or just a general feeling of okay-ness? Maybe it’s gratitude.
Whatever it is, I’d like to get rid of the weird anxious feeling I get whenever I am alone… or atleast, learn to live with it without resorting to bad self-harming habits.
2018 is already shaping up to be an emotional challenge, but here’s hoping that I manage to do some personal growth.
What are your goals and resolutions for this year? Let me know down below in the comments.